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Thursday, January 19, 2012

One.Day.At.A.Time.


Exactly one week after my friend sent her text to me in church with a sweet message, the Lord was working on behalf of this humble servant. I received an email from another friend titled, "God gave me a word for you". I can't tell you how excited I was to read it. It is not every day that you get emails like this!
Atleast I don't! This is what it said: "As I prayed for you yesterday(Sunday), God gave me a word for you..here is what I felt He was saying:
I know you are tired and perhaps weak. That's a great place cause when you are weak I am strong. Rest.
Focus only on today and on me.
The future is a phantom to spook you.
Rest, focus on me and watch what I will do for you."

The future is a phantom to spook you. I had to read that one several times and as I prayed the Lord gave me such peace over the word. I received every bit of it....every syllable. Thank you Lord. ONE day. THIS day. Let me take each day and rest in it, rest in YOU.
My Aunt used to sing this song, One Day At A Time, when I was a child. I relished and memorized every word. When I close my eyes, I can almost hear her voice as I imagine her perfectly golden hair and glistening lips as she sang the words. Throughout my childhood and teen years up to now, I have loved leaning back on the truths of that song. Yes, Lord...one.day.at.a.time. It is SO not easy. SO not the norm. Throughout this adoption process, it has been ALL about planning for the future. What she will look like, when we will travel, what we will need when we travel, how to prepare the nursery, when will we get the call, how to prepare for future holidays, what will our family picture look like, etc. Our minds have been consumed about the tomorrows of our adoption..not the today. Lord, today, I rest in you. I take today, my life, my family, my job, my tasks for the moment, and I make them matter for today. May I not press in to worry about tomorrow. May I not try to imagine..just rest. Lord, what you have for me, for us is far greater than I could imagine anyway. I shall (try) not waste my time...your time in pondering on such things that are too lofty for me to attain. thank you my sweet Lord.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Reason to Sing

I have been praying for a word, a word from the Lord, a very specific word from Him. There has been silence. I have heard nothing. But I know my Lord has heard my plea. I have needed to hear from Him. I have longed for His word over this circumstance...but silence. It has been 2 months..and just silence. We have waited. I have waited. It has been difficult just pressing in, difficult just moving forward. Oh Lord, which way do you want us to go? Do you want us to hang in there? Do you want us to let this go? I need a word. I have pleaded my case before Him and I have been waiting. patiently. I have. I have been just waiting for His still small voice to speak to me.
Last Sunday I was sitting in church and having a difficult time entering into worship. I kept pressing through and felt the Lord whisper, "You will get a word today". Now..I thought He was just referring to the message from the pastor and that I would get an applicable life message that I could apply to me. I had no idea that the Lord was referring to THE word that I have been waiting for regarding our adoption. I began to relax and worship and felt my spirit melt in the goodness of His presence. Within a few minutes, my phone lit up in the darkness of the sanctuary. I quickly sat and reached for my phone. It was a text from a sweet friend of my mind. I read it immediately. She said, "Listening to a song that my husband worked on called "Reason to Sing" .." I need a reason to sing, I need to know that you're still holding the whole world in your hands. I need a reason to sing." It's a worship song...I thought of u when I heard it and about the adoption issues...its one of those songs to hear when things feel like they're going wrong. I want to send it to you."
My heart smiled greater than my face could even try. I knew the Lord had sent a sweet message through my friend. It took a week for my great package to arrive. I couldn't open it fast enough. Below is a link to the youtube. The words are pivotal. They reached my heart. A prayer. A prayer put into song. My prayer. A prayer I havent really been able to voice. What beautiful words. Following the song is a reprise. I have posted the lyrics. Scroll down to the bottom of this blog and turn off the playlist before hitting play on this youtube.



When the pieces seem too shattered to gather off the floor, And all that seems to matter is I don't feel you anymore. I don't feel you anymore.
I need a reason to sing. I need a reason to sing.
I need to know that you're still holding the whole world in your hands.
I need a reason to sing.

When I'm overcome by fear and I hate everything I know. If this waiting lasts forever, I'm afraid I might let go. I'm afraid I might let go.
I need a reason to sing. I need a reason to sing.
I need to know that you're still holding the whole world in your hands.
And I need a reason to sing.

Will there be a victory, will you sing it over me, now? Your peace is the melody. Will you sing it over me, now?
I need a reason to sing. I need a reason to sing. (repeat)
I need to know that you're still holding the whole world in your hands.
That is a reason to sing.

Reprise:
I will sing. I will sing. I will sing.
You are good Oh Lord. You are always the reason. You are good and Holy, Lord.
I will sing, sing, sing to my God, my King. I will sing, sing, sing to my God, my King.
And I will love, love, love with this heart you made for me.